I've been thinking more and more lately over the past week or so about what my blog title means to me and how it plays into what I write on this blog. I don't want to back myself into a tiny corner of possible subjects to write about just because of my blog title, but I don't want to go so far off base that people start wondering why I ever chose the title I did. (I suppose I could always change it again if things start to change, but I'd rather not.)
All that to say...just writing on here is a change for me. I use to have a blog before until someone started leaving VERY disturbing comments which prompted my husband to tell me to delete that blog and not to blog again. While I suspect that I know who was leaving those comments, there is no way for me to know for sure anymore. I suppose at some point I may write a post about what exactly happened, but this is not that post.
Another way that writing on here is a change for me is that I used to write daily in journals while in college. In fact, there were many days where I wrote up to ten times. It was all nonsense, but it was me at that time. Reading back through my journals, I have begun to realize why I had more guy friends than girl friends. I wanted to hang out and have fun more than I wanted to open up to anyone other than my very few select girl friends. Writing this blog opens me up to people I don't even know. Scary thought, but at the same time, it is very relieving. I don't have to hide me anymore. I really am a dork. I really am unconfident.
Now, if my posts from now on seem to go too far out of line and start to bore ya'll, please let me know. I really wanted to write a blog that would entertain people, but so far it has almost turned into a therapy session for me instead. Maybe you just have to know me to laugh at what I write. (not saying you don't laugh already, but I do know that sometimes my sense of humor is VERY twisted.)
Are you still reading? Wow! I'm impressed! I almost lost mySELF in all that dribble.
Let me now apologize for my rambling. I'm sorry I dragged you through all of that, but I had to get it off my chest. Now, let's see if my following posts can be more lighthearted and upbeat.