Wednesday, January 7, 2009

My Blog Title

I've been thinking more and more lately over the past week or so about what my blog title means to me and how it plays into what I write on this blog. I don't want to back myself into a tiny corner of possible subjects to write about just because of my blog title, but I don't want to go so far off base that people start wondering why I ever chose the title I did. (I suppose I could always change it again if things start to change, but I'd rather not.)

All that to say...just writing on here is a change for me. I use to have a blog before until someone started leaving VERY disturbing comments which prompted my husband to tell me to delete that blog and not to blog again. While I suspect that I know who was leaving those comments, there is no way for me to know for sure anymore. I suppose at some point I may write a post about what exactly happened, but this is not that post.

Another way that writing on here is a change for me is that I used to write daily in journals while in college. In fact, there were many days where I wrote up to ten times. It was all nonsense, but it was me at that time. Reading back through my journals, I have begun to realize why I had more guy friends than girl friends. I wanted to hang out and have fun more than I wanted to open up to anyone other than my very few select girl friends. Writing this blog opens me up to people I don't even know. Scary thought, but at the same time, it is very relieving. I don't have to hide me anymore. I really am a dork. I really am unconfident.

Now, if my posts from now on seem to go too far out of line and start to bore ya'll, please let me know. I really wanted to write a blog that would entertain people, but so far it has almost turned into a therapy session for me instead. Maybe you just have to know me to laugh at what I write. (not saying you don't laugh already, but I do know that sometimes my sense of humor is VERY twisted.)

Are you still reading? Wow! I'm impressed! I almost lost mySELF in all that dribble.

Let me now apologize for my rambling. I'm sorry I dragged you through all of that, but I had to get it off my chest. Now, let's see if my following posts can be more lighthearted and upbeat.

3 comments:

Jacki said...

Wow...that would scare me if I had a blog stalker. I have read other blogs, with the authors talking about scary stalking situations. But thankfully I've never had one.

If you need to use your blog as therapy, that is fine with me. :-)

Phoenix said...

lol. Thanks, Jacki! Maybe a random post thrown in here and there.

If my guess was correct, my blog stalker was someone I had, at one time, called friend. Needless to say, I don't talk to that person anymore.

anna said...

I love looking at your blog. It's fun and helpful to see other situations other people are working through. . . how they get through them. . .

I am a journal person too - I used to write in them lots and lots and lots, but now its more of a spritual thing for me with some everyday events on top. . .

the whole thing about opening up to others. . . that's part of the reason I blog - I want people to see me for who I am (as scary as that is! lol). They can see I too am just another human, wanting to love God more and be a better person. . . but not without stumbling quite a bit along the way. The amazing thing is that He who began the good work in us performs it UNTIL the day of Jesus Christ. . .